September 2010
Words
I hurt
I hurt
I hurt
So bad right now
Curl me up in a blanket, coccoon of my dreams.
Please, swallow me up in this bed,
Toes to head
No ray of light through these dark sheets,
Sleep,
Sleep,
Sleep,
Leave me alone to die inside
Slowly. To escape this world
Under these dark sheets. Lonely
Wishing for a whisper
Quiet, yet ever resounding through my bones,
Words that will give me...
August 2010
“Your tongue is a rudder. It steers the whole ship. Sends your words past your...”
saludar al vecino acostarse a una hora trabajar cada dia para vivir en la vida contestar solo aquello y sentir solo esto y que Dios nos ampare de malos pensamientos cumplir con las tareas, asistir al colegio. que diria la familia si eres un fracasado? ponte siempre zapatos, no hagas ruido en la mesa usa medias veladas y corbata en las fiestas las mujeres se casan siempre antes de 30 si no vestiran...
“When I dream, I dream of him. For several nights now he’s come to me, waving...”
– The Sweet Far Thing, Libba Bray
Five Days
I can’t wait to see you.
Finally. To see your face.
I can’t wait to look into your eyes.
Those precious baby blues.
I can’t wait to finally embrace you
To feel your warmth.
And to finally fall into deep slumber, into our own secret dreamland
Just me and you.
~
Us and our land of love.
I love you, Colby Blanchette.
You are the love of my life.
And I long to be yours…
Forever. :)
I think we stopped celebrating our monthaversaries/months together because time flies so fast when we’re together, that we forget to count. And it feels like we’re not holding out till next month, wanting to make the next month mark. We just ride it out, we let it roll.
Want
Okay. So I figured I’d once and for all write out all the things I want because I never really ask for anything. I always think about others first but tonight I’m thinking about what I want, for me. Of course, I’m working for these things so I have the right to dream :)
A subscription to National Geographic or National Geographic Adventures (such a kickass edition…I want...
Love
I love my boyfriend.
Everything’s perfect when I’m with you.
I love my best friend.
No one will ever replace you.
I love my family.
I am so grateful for you.
I love my girl up in pup heaven.
I will never forget you
And here I am, just waiting for you.
Hoping and praying to death
you won’t let me go.
But you’ve already begun.
I can feel my heart sinking
I can feel my stomach aching.
Nausea.
That’s what you have caused in me.
I cannot
Do not
want to get out of this miserable bed.
Without you in it.
I feel dead.
Because I’m here, just waiting for you
and always will be
...
Eres tú, como la noche bella ...En tu piel,...
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I’m in a daze today.
I went to the doctor’s.
Again.
I like it.
I learned new things about me.
I don’t know if I should start worrying yet.
Nah, when do I ever.
I enjoyed my pasta lunch with Mom.
Mm mm.
I wish we went out to eat more. She’s so worried about money all the time.
Sigh.
I wish I didn’t have to worry about money, ever.
I hate money.
I wish it...
Let's get lost in the moonlight. Let's spoon. Just...
I’m nervous I won’t finish this project in time.
Because it’s for you.
I’ve never made something like this for any other man before.
I love your family.
I feel at home with you.
I loved Christmas at your place.
I loved hot chocolate while watching movies on the tv next to the big Christmas tree.
I want to take a road trip to Colorado with you.
No, we are going to...
Sin tu respirar me ahogo.
Noise
It becomes cold at night.
There’s a thunderstorm. I am in love with it.
Sometimes I like to hear the loudness.
Sometimes all I want to hear is noise.
That’s when I just feel like saying I don’t give a flying fuck.
Most of the time I hate noise.
But I only like the pretty kind.
Laughter, birds, airplanes, trains, rain, crackling flames in a fireplace at night,...
there's a sound outside my window. it sounds like...
“Crashing swells bring me to this place
Pull towards the beach
To make it to my...”
I'm sorry, I'm not a hopeless romantic...but you...
I'm coming home.
